February 2012
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Darken this verse, with sour intentions. I can’t crave this, your imperfection. And like ticks, you’ll feed relentless, not ever absolute. Such weak examples, disgraceful role models. Decrepit, this soul can find it. The only truth. I will die.
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The Chaos Codex
Prologue. From nothing, born into everything void. Into nothing it returns, metaphorical wings ignite. Tranquil calm, tumultuous noise deafening silence a part of the whole. Rising from oblivion, emotionless, expressionless, eating its heart, scorching its thoughts. It is naught, defining much more than lot, it is all and one. A Beast of knowledge, God of impiety, within divinity and...
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Abhorrent admiration
I am not you You, who mocks me so whimsically You, my mirror My flawless reflection Perfection your shivering hands to clam your hidden soul exposed your shattered will reborn create another again discard this mistake this mistake will not yield it resents immaculate existence stubborn and childish unable to repair blind to the eyes of tame unnoticed in...
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Distraught musings
She sees only what she wants to, never what she can. 17 past noon, and depression seeps in. Soon, I must get going. Before she notices that I am gone, I will be back. She will poke away at my side with her thorns. Stab and grind till blood and bone. And I will console her misplaced heart. Her last excuse for a connection. Like countless before her, and countless after, glee with turmoil, smiling...
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Tragedy
How am I to tell you what’s wrong? My words won’t stay, they’d rather be astray amidst a maelstrom of gibberish. A thought lost somewhere, cannot hold on to what lies ahead. Too blind. Too drunk. In too much pain. Oh the disdain! This soul feels. Does it feel? The falling rain, of your neighbor’s piss. Killing foliage and house rats. Pests you’d rather never see...
January 2012
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Humility in Sepia
resting upon my crest a shallow hopeless soul with shame that resonates with pain I call my own no man would understand no love could ever hold falling to pieces fast this shattered empty hole have dreams that gone awry shed skin for tears of gold this heart is worthless now in bloom and yet so old through pictures I relate nostalgia creeping in reliving countless pasts denying endless sins true...
December 2011
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Art
Twisted art, stealing squalor; with sorrowful eyes, apostrophized. Pink flowers white, enraged in blossom; bow in rapture, wilt with guilt. Melancholize, subtle smiles; and dirge, cheerful. Coveting athanasia, lonely last crescent; shimmering - the frame, in dim grace forlorn. Venerate on cloth, examples for enthusiasts; monotony and sloth, gnawing at imagination. Fear time, in malevolent apathy;...
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Season's Greetings
come festivities, come in glee as I rally my senses, come to see like the fragrant bust of nature’s flower scent the air with life, with power. auspicious night, this eve of evenings. sultry delights for men not sleeping. with lust and leg they walk to church, with come and breath behind the birch. being not my place, for one night’s disgrace jubilation all round Santa is in town....
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Eclipse
GRIM HILL shadow placid valley. The Samurai’s rest, under the watchful eyes of god. Gleaming golden blades gather strength from moon. Its unfinished visage lingers, as if devoured by a giant. Pale with gloom in transparent violet hue, unites in prayer, divides in war. The biting cold drifts along the slopes, A warning for your soul, let not your resolve be weakened. Slow times under the...
November 2011
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Pariah
crumpled in a corner his parched throat shrills diseased and lethargic knighted in misery when time stops apathy doesn’t. how could you feel? the turn his stomach takes when a sad cry becomes a prayer and an oath becomes a stake stepping in to become the hero you’re out of place kicked and slapped beaten and ragged spit we will unlike on animals, still one man’s caste another...
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Submission
cut slow into epidermis part flesh and bone from deep within a great divide shoe flower red flows tracing skin and scar distraught emotions emanate expressionless face demands answers that invigorate in dark isolation madness means death screaming walls of claustrophobia entrapping thought and breath apathy that clings like hatred that stings writhing in turmoil naked and cold cut by words and...
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October 2011
4 posts
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End.
Raped solace your fingers seek stones there is nothing more you are falling apart. A tragedy… melancholy bursts into flames divided by shame, now, weep. That is not how your story ends. Wake up in armageddon dive into the maelstrom now wave make me smile live in my heart of confusion with your hands tied to your feet and stare at the pretty lights as the bombs go off one by one.
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Pine
If you be pined, let you cradle me in ash with a tear drop in your eye, in a dark alleyway, abashed. Heart beats slow listless hours flow, mangled in sin withering so. Cold air in my lungs, your kiss soothes my tongue wrecking ball comes to demolish dreams and fun. Build me with your hands, break me with your knees, I be the gift, the sacrifice you desire, cradled in ash, burning in the pyre.
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Accord
With what is wrong, and indolence prevails with furious rage, There can be no justice. A twitch in the corner draws my vision. Plated steel and razor, leaking crimson. Stargazer.
Uneasy, this feeling, strangling yet soothing. Sleep tight and forget tomorrow.
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Cajole
Far away from my mind’s eye. Yet I see the sins hidden ‘neath your robes, your scarlet crest, your cold disclosure.
Burden my heart with your grudges. My hands, with your tears.
September 2011
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Asphalt Garden
thick vile putrescence upon green grass oscillating floats like a butterfly chews like ants. a shimmer of light hits the ground and we dance for our lives from the invisible moth an illusion so false our stupidity will not fathom a rush so intense our hearts will give way. vibrating still, streaks through my spine, a chill bursting into flames inside my head soulless little boy now sees red. every...
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Trauma
Paralyzed. Numbed. Panicked. Freak out with me. Because you can. And the ceiling will turn, along with the fan. You are here alone. There is no one else, save for the ticks and termites. And your audience of a thousand arthropods applauds. Chewing your thumb anxiously in the corner. Shy little devil, believes in death before dishonor. Tragedies end with nothing more but a comma. Not enough to...
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Her again.
Tender blossoms of gloom decorate the widowed sunset the azure fading with the moon not far behind. I dream of you such dull days because you make me happy your smile I long to see if not topless, wild and free. In my loneliness it yearns A hunger for you burns sell me to you, I shall comply I’m depraved and weak, pray I die. I know not what my mind seeks what it sees in you apart from lust...
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A Season in Hell
A while back, if I remember right, my life was one long party where all hearts were open wide, where all wines kept flowing. One night, I sat Beauty down on my lap.—And I found her galling.—And I roughed her up. I armed myself against justice. I ran away. O witches, O misery, O hatred, my treasure’s been turned over to you! I managed to make every trace of human hope vanish from my mind. I...
August 2011
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Limbo
Echoing screams of the fallen Ring in the thick air that fills this void dark and dim, this callous chill embraces your fear, and terrifies your mind Now and forever, eternity is this lost in this eeriness, in all this grim amidst black roses, and poison thorns and rivers of acid, that flood to the brim The lights are weak, black is impenetrable rusing the haunting azure to tears,...
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Tough love
Fuck you Go die You ruined my life You killed me inside I wish you burn Eternally in hell And if you still survive I pray I find you again So I can fuck you with a razor blade Beat you with a jagged whip Exhaust my strength Watch me grin As I bash your head in I won’t let you die So you better hope you do Before I find you.
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Damn
Barely in touch Once the closest Distant and quiet Discontent yet healing Traits that define the missing memory Uncertain care emanates And you return with no answers How I’ve missed you! Damn you.
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I wish.
If I were to write over and again, about what makes my stomach turn the most, I’d be branded a lunatic. I would need help. Cause you wouldn’t help me. Cause you couldn’t help me. I’m a wreck. And all I can think about is killing you. But I like you so much. Why do you persist? Eating through my head. You turn a quiet room red. A peaceful slumber a nightmare. A burst of...
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July 2011
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A trip into bliss.
Down at the foothills of this green precipice, staring up into the clouds. Bags-a-packed an ready to roll, onward we march. The Distance is 9 Kms, we stand here at ‘0’. Popping a beer to numb our fears for the next 3 hours or so. Km 9. - 9:00 AM Slow is the ascent. Couch potatoes trolling slopes. The waterfalls to come enlighten and charge us on. Two friends looking for an escape from...
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The Dream
I’ve seen a dream with my eyes open of my death, in crimson dusk in violet rage. On a rod of iron my carcass decays mirrored visions in twisted delay ravens flocking they’ve come to pray and rip and feast as vultures glare. The sky ignites an angel appears A red dot glows not far from here engulfed in black biting my skin the mountains behind have fallen grim. A heavy fog invades the...
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The Suicide Kid
I went to the worst of bars hoping to get killed. but all I could do was to get drunk again. worse, the bar patrons even ended up liking me. there I was trying to get pushed over the dark edge and I ended up with free drinks while somewhere else some poor son-of-a-bitch was in a hospital bed, tubes sticking out all over him as he fought like hell to live. nobody would help me die as the drinks...
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Ultraviolet Serenade
This infectious sky of purple dye clumsily falling to stay high. Black and gray stroll and sway in suffocating blues. Tranquil cold, aged and old, leaves me a chill to signify. Rot, I will not, If, under this azure, I faithlessly die. The willows in the swamp exhale into the calm twilight, as crickets and toads sing choirs to the wind. Enchant melodies of melancholy and delight, to willless souls...
June 2011
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A Quiet Mind
I live in the symphony of destruction Singing lullabies to my ears Wailing violins that fill the rhythm Leave trinkets for my fears Dead roses on my window What sadness they show! What grief is - do they know? Resonating, alive Through the echoes of my conscience Like ripples in a pond Where fish come to play Where old men cry Where children die In my home In sinful silence Prying open my head To...
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The Rhyming Scheme
come tattle tale tell me a rhyme, for every truth I’ll give you a dime. sell your soul for lust and wine, wishes you pray, are just, divine. tears for an eye, you beg to cry, won’t make whole, incomplete soul. the shameful deeds that cloud your mind, fragments of lies - in you confined. a killer with a mask, one question to decide, ring to my rhyme or prepare to die. four lines of...
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Crystal
Sweet translucent savior, rest in your coffin. Wait for them to gather and heave in your sorrow. A gift from high - Angelic oracle. The source of enlightenment and moderation. Your succulent mouth, narrow and wide, like hellfire you burn, reveal all to my eyes. It rests in your belly, the mist of death. Warm and coarse, it sinks into my chest. Raging nymphet, juvenile and diabolical, possessed by...
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The Conqueror Worm
LO! ‘t is a gala night Within the lonesome latter years. An angel throng, bewinged, bedight In veils, and drowned in tears, Sit in a theatre to see A play of hopes and fears, While the orchestra breathes fitfully The music of the spheres. Mimes, in the form of God on high, Mutter and mumble low, And hither and thither...
May 2011
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Magnum.
Carved from stone, boasting power surreal. Chiseled and smothered to perfection. Black as the dreamless night, created for purpose true. To ensnare and enslave minds of the weak. A sure six-shot. Aiming to kill, his master and his master’s enemies. The shell that never boils. Cool till its last pull. Spotless after it’s dredged. Smooth. Bound in its ropes, patient. Ready to fire again...
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Poison
Twisted love cradled in cold steel transfixing lust embraces this sadness Etched on skin in red and black under her spell sold to her Drips like dew and poison pins entwine intimacy with violent agony And calls to her words to return at once stitch this mouth enchant this soul Tongues trace your cheek a taste to ridicule and less folded in your thorns gazing into endless dream.
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The Crimson Alchemist
With wings of fire His insanity sears Hearts and minds Shed million tears Cold as ice Pretentiously nice Kills a hundred Feeding on fear A violent cloak An empty facade Reveals his magic On the one’s he gnawed Dressed in white Blood in sight Hunger arouses This fateful night A remnant of war Twisted and more Turn bread into bombs And sing to the psalms Ruthless in his work His need to hurt A...
April 2011
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Her.
she brings me sadness conflicted intimate emotions respond the most dazzling of all in one breath I fall distant attraction embraced by lust succumb to her will I must black is her heart cold is her touch she wants me to die she wants me to kill so i lie against my will delirious and guilty you make me sin vixen demented muse my thrill were you broken before are you crying now? watch me lick your...
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- frame of mind -
good stuff helps trip calm down let drip not alone not yet mind of mine upset.
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Trertye
crystal mountain of death soaring through placid skies overshadow me, invigorate me. scream from dimensions mystical conquering reality and the real subtle and quiet, it’s stand is just. in the middle of infinity in endless limbo rape my destiny, come bleed sense. revive the sin and malice the painful septic lesion your fateful cliffs, your maddening heights. take me there to the void where...
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Violet
Escape while you can or turn around and face me again You mesmerize - like ice, melting me. Her shade were you. Subtlety was your strength. How long can you hold? Chaos within your soul, so hard to control. Bleeds into your ears - “Let me go.” Your feet give in and you fall. Look up to the sky. Cry. Purple death? No, violet. Standing on the edge of this blade, I’ll trip and...
March 2011
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Cigarette.
Give me a ruse. Give me a need. Such trifling desires are reserved for the weak. I’ll be weak for you. I’ll sell my soul to feel you in me. You’re an enigma. Your Venomous leaves, your putrid embrace, your beacon ignites, glowing like fire. Revitalizing. Rivet me in your bluish gray mist. You bring order to chaos. You spring hope in devastated hearts. Sweet soldier of death you!...
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A ghost in the sky.
My Dearest Moon,
i have missed you. you seem biggest and brightest this timid night. amongst all my troubles my eyes are still riveted by your aura. affixed upon your blinding light i gaze madly, forgetting myself. such a luminous glow! such a beautiful sight! you shine vivid and wild in silence, indifferent to anyone’s desires. you calm me. you soothe me. embrace me in your placid lull.
i...
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“There’s no point in being ‘cool’ if you’re fucking...”
– my baked head.